Today was a big day.
You’re 6 months old today! You’re such a happy baby. You love to sing and talk to anyone who will listen and smile at everyone. You’re sleeping (for about 6 hours) well and eating like a champ. You can hardly tell you were 6 weeks early. There was an accident in April at daycare that injured your arm but that has barely slowed you down! We spent some time in the hospital and make sure your arm healed and while it hasn’t healed as straight as we would like…it doesn’t seem to bother you at all! We’re working with a physical therapist to make sure you’re back to using your arm as soon as possible!
Today a panel heard your case. The panel is made up of folks from the community who care about foster kids and have special training in understanding the system. I talked to your first mom (Gigi) last night and she said she wanted to make sure to be there so we gave her a ride. While we were there we talked about how much she loves you and how happy she is that you’re healthy and happy. She’s so happy that you’re growing up with Sam. She is so happy that you’re heathy and happy.
While we were at the meeting she let them know she was ready to sign the papers that will make it faster for us to be your parents forever. We left the meeting and went to the office where she could sign the papers. This was a really big deal and a really big decision. Never ever doubt that this was a hard thing for her to do. These papers mean she knows she won’t ever be your mama and be the one to take care of you.
We had to wait a long long time for the papers to be ready and for the right people to be there for her to sign. She held you and fed you and sang you to sleep while we waited. She and I also talked a lot and learned more about each other. After she signed she was very sad and talked about how she knew she made the right decision but it was still very hard. We talked about how her signing those papers doesn’t mean she will never see you again. We still very much want her to know you and for you to grow up knowing who she is. We went and had lunch together so she could have a little longer visit today.
She’s an important part of your story. She’s an important part of our story together.
The more your first mom talked today, the more I realized that you are a miracle. I know, I know…all babies are miracles. Some babies just have beginnings that involve lots of doctors visits, vitamins, scans, buying cribs, choosing car seats, and very planned arrivals. Your first months when Gigi found out about you weren’t like that. It was about this time last year that she told us she was expecting a baby, but it didn’t seem like you would be healthy when you arrived. There were lots of questions even up until your arrival about how healthy you would be. And here you are! Sound asleep in my lap as I type. Happy and healthy. My prayer is that we remember what a gift you are to our family, our village, and our world. You’ve made our lives crazier, that’s for sure, but I wouldn’t trade a minute!
Speaking of crazy, I’ve got to go unload the dishwasher and clean off the dining room table. We heard today from the lady who is coming back to our house this week to follow-up about your accident and we need to get ready! I'm sure when we think of your first six months we'll remember that these have been some of our craziest days - but also some of our best days!
We love you, C!
Mama and Bubbie